Everything do come to an end.

Finally.

ob assignment, down. =))

Ps sorry liverpool fan for being harsh last week. will take down post soon = no longer mad. and thanks for the post card again.

Anger Management

first of all, i apologise to family members who read this, because this is one lengthy post filled with harsh words. So if you can't accept the fact that i am such a vulgar person, then simple, get lost.

there's two things bothering me these days. firstly, please, do.not.bother.asking.me.how.am.i everyday. if you feel it is courteous, it is not. it is fucking mind boggling. get it? if you want to ask, by all means, do-fucking-so, but if you can't accept a one word answer, then forget about asking me. what's up with this shit of expecting more than one word? you expect me to tell you ALL the little things in life, what goes on in my mind, then for heaven's sake, send a bloody spy. clearly, i do not have time to answer all the goddamn small things in life that happened in a fucking day. i clearly do not need more than one boyfriend. and if i do not ask how was your day, why fucking bother telling me, this shows i don't even have time to read bullshit. seriously, i do not think i need to report how many hair grew in my armpit today or how i realized there's an ant in the fucking toilet. if i want to tell someone this, i can just find a boyfriend. period.

so if you wanna know something different in my day, like how i died or was involved in an accident, lemme tell you, there's nothing interesting about my days. i wake up, eat, shit, bathe, study, school, return, sleep, eat, watch tv. the same ol' fucking shit every goddamn day. i am sorry to disappoint if you wanna know anything extra.

firstly, i didn't answer politely, not because i had a bad dream! it's because i just do not want to answer. and do you actually ask everyone the 'how was ur day' question. that question is fucking annoying i can tell you that. whether i overslept and what my heart thinks about IS MY GODDAMN PROBLEM. why do you keep thinking you have the right to know?? and i didn't ask how was your day. i have too many other days to bother about than to ask how was yours. and seriously, i do not want to share my life with a friend. i want to share my life with someone i love, obviously. and why bother which i pick? whether their words are sweet or they are cute and u think they are playboys, and why u bother being disappointed in me. do not judge someone you don't know, you just downright pissed me off there. i didn't choose you, live with it. stop telling me things to change my mind about you. because once i made a decision, you live with my decision. leave me alone. what you think about me that i can be moved with sweet words, IS DOWNRIGHT WRONG. because i stand by my principles, i am a person with principles.

secondly, if you are my fucking friend, stop being a pretentious slut. whore. the trouble with you asking me for the latest news is just for fun. not because you care, not because you're a fucking friend. clearly, u are just not pleased that somethings which belonged to me, will sooner or fucking, later, return to me. so if you don't bother giving CON-FUCKING-SOLING (consoling dude) words to me or any WISE enough advice, shut the fuck up, don't come and ask me for anything. i don't even think you are partially qualified to give a smart enough advice obviously. one thing that people misinterprete about good friends is that they all listen. bull-fucking-shit i tell u. i don't need people telling me 'i don't know', 'i am not sure'. very simple, in life, when i treat someone good, i expect the same shit from you. if you don't, then try to fucking re-evaluate your goddamn self and see how bloody 'useful' you have been as a fucking friend, will you do me that favour? then you finally fucking realize you are actually good enough to be compared on par with me, think again, you're a horrible person. anyway, please stop misusing the word 'good friend'. if really you cannot give a damn on how i am feeling, why you ask 'so what's up'. you can go straight to the goddamn point and say 'so what's the gossip, are u dead yet or are u suffering yet, 'friend'?'.

last but not least, seriously, LAST-FUCKING-LEAST, you need to bloody grow up. everyone needs to adapt to a new group, so be it. maybe you need to think, how in any fucking other ways you could have handled the goddamn situation. one person, when they lose their friends, the childish ones think someone is sabotaging him, but if you can finally think as a grown up, maybe really, your attitude is shit balls. if you feel i stole something from you, maybe i have not at all, because it wasn't yours in the first place, bitch. and please, you can have it for all i care, because i have grown, i am fucking 21 and i can think, I MOVE ON IN LIFE. not like you, always stuck at square one. anyway, for things you feel you had once, like someone's heart, maybe you never really had it at all because people who told you that you had it, was just merely trying to fucking please you. it was all IMAGINARY to you, seriously. and let me tell you, i moved on, months ago. so what you think i stole, i already put it back in a place where it came from, which is obviously not you. and please, stop banging your good friends, because what have they gotta do with this. so think wisely, just because no one sides you, it's not their fault. this is HOW YOU CHASED YOUR FRIENDS AWAY DUDE! do not fucking sulk at rotten eggs.

THERE IT FUCKING GOES. i will remove this once i am over it. i seriously hate pretentious sluts who tries to be someone they can never be.

Ps. (editted) thank you to those who actually hear me out when i am angry or down. yee vonn, jo, c veannnnnnnnnn, ALVIN and yin wai of course. occasionally jack. haha. i love you people.

My favourite things.

There are just a few things which can really make my day. You know the feeling of waking up on the wrong side of the bed, is yuck. But when I am down, or very drawn by emotions, there can be a few things to cheer me up.

I am hard headed when it comes to emotions, so there is not likely for one person who can really change how I feel.

Besides going on a retail therapy trip, there are two things which cheers me up, without a cost.

Blue skies!

Don't blue skies outside your window instantly tells you that you're just going to have an awesome day? And the weirdest thing about me is, I smile when I see skies like this outside of my window when I rise. =))


This would be the second thing which usually makes up my night (when there's no blue skies). I love the Bob Marley version, because it's so happy!

It says:

We woke up this morning,

just in time for the rising sun.

There were three little birds,

outside my doorstep.

They were singing some sweet songs,

their melody was pure and true (in this video is was 'clear').

They were singing,

this is my message to you.

Don't worry about a thing,

cause every little thing is gonna be alright.

Yup, everything is going to be alright, like my OB assignment. Haha!

I love love love this version as well. Just can't decide which. Brandon changed this into mp3 version for me! Haha. I was trying to find the Casa Nova version, which doesn't sound as happy as this both, (and I didn't quite like it in the beginning) but now it sounds really nice to me.

And yes, there is a difference between these two videos.

Lastly, girly gossip talk time is a happy thing too!

Happy 21st YAP! Haha. So weird your friends call you that.

And happy 21st Chee Mun Wah, if she does read this. I love you long time CF President (and yes I must repeat this)!!

No birthday wishes for Jack.

late in the night.

it is 3.44 am in the morning. and all i am doing is look at this thing called The Group Decision-Making process, which is boring the shit out of me. you can tell i hate organisation behaviour. oh, while listening to the love of my life, mraz. sipping on hot milo. wondering why is there a need for people to think about what has happened. live, and let live.


so. here i am. blogging nonsensical.


last night, i have initially wanted to blog about whatever that has happened since december. but there's just too many to freaking comprehend. starting from christmas that is. so i just decided not to. but most likely, i'd blog my 21st. that will be a long post. trust me.


it was a long celebration.


anyway, so how it feels being alone and 21. old and well, lonely. haha. damn lame. shoot me so i die.


i hate assignments. seriously.


(i just came out from the toilet and...ahhhhh soap is in my eye)


side tracked. these few days, i have been contemplating whether or not to get brown coloured contact lenses. wtf. (i am just into buying nonsense these days, i have too much money now that i don't hang out every night anymore) then brandon shot me, and said it's too fake, wtf. jin, now you know who is the one who convinced me not to do it. so what do you think, anonymous reader, whoever you are reading this?

damn it. back to books.


(in bed is where i should really be now, believe me)

Ps. someone has got to stop me from buying rubbish. i am waiting for a parcel of a dress and top tomorrow...and faux eyelashes (you got a freaking prob with my fake lashes dude?) and waiting for my clothes from perth....guil-tay. anyway, side track, i am thinking of getting a pair of skinnys, but i cannot decide if i want a grey one or the usual blue ones. PLEASE I NEED FEEDBACKS OKAY SO GODDAMNIT, REPLY IN THE COMMENTS SECTION (i hate chatboxes). i just really can't decide on the pull&bear one or the valleygirl one, damn. i hate choices.

the change.

firstly, let me apologize about the blog address change. i know it's the third time, and it's a hassle to change it. when i first chose wangi-fied, i wasn't exactly comfortable with the name itself. i have been using 'wangi' as my online msn nick for years...4 years to be exact and you might think i should be used to it by then. when i chose my url, i wanted it to be wangi, but sadly, it has been taken up. so i settled in for something alike.

and recently, while i was bathing (great ideas come when i bathe), i thought i should really name my blog wrt(with respect to) something i treasure dearly. if you would've known me for years, my baby bolster is one of the dearest thing in my life. recently, it fell apart (ala died) due to rotten materials, and holes wtf. i am still keeping it! so no worries. (i'd die without touching it every night)

so, there, the birth of tinybabybolster.blogspot.com, a name which i hold dearly to my heart. thank you.

A day in my life.

This is quite cute a tag. Very fun one. So out of so many tags, I've chosen this to do. Everyday of my life varies, but this is a typical Tuesday. I picked Tuesday because I can sleep later through the morning, so I don't look si beh tired.

I wake up very grumpily. Who likes waking up for classes anyway?

First thing in the mornings. Alarm clocks and love messages.

Then head on to the bathroom for a warm bath and some pee job, wtf.

Pick out my outfit of the day. Usually I will have this thought out the night before. So this is done very quickly. Sometimes I do change my mind though. Bahhhh. Indecisiveness.

There, freshly brushed hair and ready to go...downstairs. Haha. Usually bag choice is figured out the night before too! I prepare my clothings very carefully.

Lunch of the day. Soup noodles.

Really, that's me.

Take a drive to college, alone.

Lectures are not too bad usually because there are companions. It's okay the three stooges are gone (still miss them ABIT ONLY! wtf). I actually had tea time with Dickson, but I forgot about the pictures. Haha.

Get stuck in the 6pm bad jam at LDP!

I forgot pictures for dinner, but I do eat and I usually take a short nap before dinner. Shower moment after being dirty for soooo long, and no, I do not take baths straight away after classes.

Read and dig up some information for OB assignment.

Do some assignment, blurred because maybe somebody want to plagiarize my work, wtf. Kidding, because people who likely wanna plagiarise are people who will be doing Globalisation, haha. (ooooops) Difficult to find information mahhhh.

Rub-a-dub-dub lotion before bedtime. Obligatory before bedtime and before walking out of the house (my sister scared me with her skin disease, eww). I do brush my teeth though.

Calling it a day, yay!

Tell me about your day will you?

Like it or not, The Day for Love.

As many would say it's just another day, or have you heard of the infamous phrase 'if your other half loves you, he should love you everyday and not just on a day every year'. Have you realized how oftern these words are uttered by someone, who most certainly has no one to share that special day with?


I can call these people sadistic or anything, but I do pity them, they very much live in denial.


I am here to prove you wrong. Everyone, I repeat, everyone, wants to celebrate Valentine's day. Despite everything being overpriced, we still order that bottle of wine or that bouquet of roses. In defense of myself and other couples, we do not just love each other on Valentine's day itself. We just show extra love for our other halves on Valentine's day.


So if you're a sad, pathetic, miserable, lonely soul on that very special day, do not be grouchy and accuse saying it's just another day, where deep down inside, your lonely soul is dying to celebrate that very special day. I must pity you, you certainly have no self pity. And, who says we can't celebrate that very special day with your girl friends/guy friends, friends, mother or siblings? It is a day for love, and no one really specified what type of love!


Back to my Valentine's day. If you do know me, you should know the love of my life has gone to a far away place to further his studies. Such a tragical story I must say. But we didn't want to waste another Valentine's day, so we still happily spent it together.


Well we spent it online, having dinner together. Sounds extremely silly, but it works. Better than beiing grouchy and saying 'ah it's just another day'.


I would post of up pictures on food another day though. Prepared some sandwich, baked potato, salad and black pepper potatoes.


Online virtual kissy!!!


All smiles because, though he is not here physically, (I was wearing clothes in the picture btw) we still managed to go through another special day.


Happy 3rd Valentine's Day, TLOML (the love of my life! words credits to Daniel, who credited Ket Wai)!! Come home soon!


More pictures some other day, I am planning to do a tag very soon. A very fun one.

As we go on..

This morning, I bade farewell to four friends, two of which are best friends of mine, who left for UQ(University of Queensland). Farewells used to be hard on me, but as I grew up, this was just a part of life we go through.

So on this fateful morning, we didn't say 'I hope you didn't go' but we said 'Take care. Study hard'. Then and now.

Tomorrow morning, physically I wouldn't be bidding farewells, but with my heart, I hope three of my other dears in life, whom I've only gotten to know recently, will take care of themselves well.

This is us now. We have grown and ready to take on the next step of our journeys.

So bid farewell with a joyous heart and wish the best with a sincere heart. =))

I am in a disgusted mood. Can you tell?

The trouble with people is, they make too many assumptions, with not enough facts supporting. If you realize one thing about me is, I ask a lot, and I like repeating my questions. Like for example, a 'do you still love me' question. A person may love me today, but it is no promise that he will love me tomorrow. True?

Overconfident people or people who lives in denial tend to assume too much, that they start believing in things that are not true, at all.

Which can be a very bad scenario.

Let me show you why.

For example, if you are a group leader, and once people elected you to be the leader. You start giving instruction on what to be done and the what nots. You list down things which you think your group members ought to do. Then you made a mistake somewhere down the road. Group members lost their respect for you, but thinking you're still at the same status, you continue bossing around. That is just going to annoy your group members.

First they lost respect for you. Now they think you are annoying. Soon enough, they are going to hate you.

So if you're at the annoying point, have you thought of stop being annoying?

Stop making an assumption. If you somehow think you're good enough, then it's just so sad to tell you, maybe you just aren't.

Birthday Hoo-Ha!

*EDITED this is extremely late...but i did receive everything listed in the list (except for the watch)! haha.



Hello everyone! From high and low and everywhere! Haha. And first of all, Happy goddamn new year! I do not know why, but for the first few days, my new year was really on a good note. But then it turned sore, I fell sick for a few days and now I am still having a headache and seriously, have I ever told you how I hate people bitchin' about things which aren't true? (diversifying for a wee bit, to me, if you do not know the entire story, do not say a word. it makes you look like a complete DUMB bimbo, period.) Anyway, bad chi aside, my 21st birthday is around the corner!


I am completely excited on the other hand, but feeling really depressed on another because hello, I am aging! But I sure do look the same like when I was younger (according to some friends, my face never changes).


So here is my ultimate wishlist!


Firstly, I highly and truly understand if you cannot afford a present. Or you do not intend to buy one. I am totally cool with it. What I really dislike is, people who don't give sincerely. So yeah, if you do not have a heart, just a wish will do, or just forget my birthday (seriously, i am cool with it). At the end of the day, it is not how many birthday wishes I have on my cell (handphone...that is), or how many friends wished me on Facebook. I only want to spend my special 21st with people I love, and people who actually love me.


And, if you want to have a dinner with me, please make a reservation. I am currently taken on 17th and 18th itself. I am fine with lunch but I want a dressy dinner (please, low cost thanks, people grow up to take finance seriously). (dressy dinner means ...loads of picture taking, nice dresses and make up)


Finally, ahhh, the wishlist! I designed this wishlist to accomodate people who can really afford aka people who want to splurge and also for people who are constantly on a tight budget. At times, I am understanding like this and do not want everyone to fork out something they are not willing to! So this wishlist may include stuffs from RM 3 up to RM 500. =)) How awesome is that!


First 'i-want' item on my 21st birthday wishlist would be panties. Cute panties wtf. Initially I would have totally opted for thongs/G-strings but yeah minis would do too! Thongs/G-strings or minis would cost up to RM20 (pictures taken from Topshop.. i LOVE their undies! lurve it). Please don't pick me somethign translucent, very not practical hello. If you knew it, I always like something girly (BUT not too pink) and cute, shouts with personality. Simplicity is a key too.
CUTE! Love that it is white (my fav colour) and love the ribbon at its front. Very sweet yet romantic.

VERY FUNKY AND CUTE! Totally out of the box. This is one of my choices because this is very very cute. Nothing beats a superwoman!

Honestly, this is my favourite. If you knew me well enough, you'd know I love gingham prints! I like its little ruffles at the edges and the cute ribbon. Although it is pink, a touch of white made it very me. Cute!

Second thing I've always wanted which you can totally afford, IF you can find it (because I myself can't find it), would be sleeping eyeshades. Usually we find the ugly dull coloured (black or grey uergh like those in A380..a plane if you don't know). But I want a really cute, white or light blue...or any colourful ones, with fur or pretty details. I think you can get these at Victoria's Secret but there's no VS here. You can try La Senza or Women's Secret.

Furry ones!

The next on my list screams AFFORDABLE! So if you've been busy clubbing and shopping last month for Christmas and NYE, and have spent out all your moo-lah, maybe these are your picks. Please, I won't laugh at you or discriminate you because I really need these!

Haha! I made arrows for you so you'd know what kind I really want. Bobby pins come in different shapes and uses. The one on the upper left side are the usual ones, but the little curves make it easier to remove. And I like tying up my hair in buns, bobby pins like the one on the right are perfect for tie-ups and buns! You can find these at Guardian or Watsons for a few dollars. (please don't buy too many packets though haha!) There's also a shop at Tropicana City Mall (new mall near SS2, awesome, along LDP!) which sells these pins. Affordable much?

The next one may seem more like a splurge. Make up is definitely on a girl's list all the time. You can never go wrong giving make up. My eyeliners are dying, so yeah...I've tried liquid eyeliners and pencil ones, so now I really want to try gel eyeliners!

I've searched up and reviews said Bobbi Brown and MAC ones are good, but these are definitely ex-to-the-spen-sive (expensive that would be).

If you are not willing to splurge, it's ok, you can just get me liquid eyeliners from L'oreal. Which is awesome because I am used to it. In black okay! Haha. Fussy I am. These are definitely less than RM50 but more than RM20.


Make up....to make up brushes. I think I have enough brushes but I don't think I own a set completely.

This is the one brush that I want the most. The angled liner brush that is. Sweet. Well, some may know brushes aren't cheap, well if you get them from MAC that is. However, I was shopping the other day and found one from The Face Shop (1u, Sunway Pyramid, Curve, Tropicana City Mall). It was only RM 19.90, but still I wasn't willing to fork out, haha, I am very very stingy. So if below RM20 is your budget, this is the pick!


The next item on my list is something I lost a long time ago but never really found a pretty one. It is a tissue pouch. Haha, how weird!

This one is absolutely cute! But you have to ship it from Singapore wtf.

I've once found one in Lovely Lace for RM10, but RM10 for a tissue pouch is ouch for me. So if you're thinking to pamper me a little, yay!


Lastly, is not something I must have, but if I was given this, I am always very happy. Unless I hate the design wtf. The next thing are watches. I've received 2 watches as presents in my entire sad 21 years of life, but both I loved dearly and cherished dearly.

I like big chunky cuff watches. Love the nude colour of this.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE WATCHES LIKE THIS. Big, fat and chunky. Fat leather straps. Very bulky. However, I've always been worried I cannot carry a watch like this because my wrists are really tiny (nothing wrong being skinny!). But omg, I love Guess box sets which you can change the straps though. I love Esprit watches too, I'm torn now, can you tell? Haha!

So if you're worried of the skinny wrists problem, sigh, you can always opt for a metal strap one because my metal strap watch died on me. However, I usually prefer leather strap ones. They're more rugged, which looks very down to earth but still has a touch of elegance and class to it. I love leather straps.

There! My very long post on what I want! If you still can't decide what to get me, get me clothes. Nice ones please, no ugly ones. I am a very clothy person.

And oh, panties, smallest size please, I have a small butt haha. Which is not a sin! Big butts are sometimes ugly, do you know. Same goes to breasts. Big is sometimes an eyesore. They sag fast too! So adios, I will be back for another short post on my little gifts for Christmas! Tata!