today marks my one year anniversary with yin wai. i just can't help but to agree how fast time flies. i can't possibly say everything was smooth sailing all these while, but i guess those bumps along the way made it all a little more meaningful.
there were many questions on how everything happened. and some have even tried to judge on how things happened. but i can tell you, there were no regrets involved.
we started of rather very mysteriously. but i guess the mystery kept my heart. the guessing and the waiting. the knowing, but not really knowing.
from the first confessions up till today, i am still very interested in this person i've known since the yester-years. and i can tell all the girls out there, at the end of the day, it is not how rich is he, nor what car he drives, nor if he has 3 houses. it is the fact that, how happy can he make you. yin wai makes me delightfully happy.
i remember the days when i tried to always keep my eyes off his eyes. because i felt if our eyes met, i'd fall in love with this stranger. stranger because i don't know how he feels for me. will he fall for me, just the way i fall for him if our eyes met? or will i get hurt just like the times before?
time flies because ever since i had him in life, all i look forward to are my weekends. doesn't matter if we have nothing to do, we'd just desperately figure out something to do. doesn't matter if no one bothers to ask us to do anything, because i can just spend my night smelling his cologne, usually on the right side of his shirt, wtf. and when saturdays end, i look forward to next friday. sundays to thursday don't seem to exist.
and i can't thank him enough for making my life seem to matter again. can't thank him enough for the times i'm at fault. and especially can't thank him enough for the times he'd given me chances when i've sinned so bad, it hurts him. can't thank him more for being there for me when i breakdown, or am pain physically. can't thank him more for changing small ways like his willingness to go shopping. can't thank him enough for forgiving the abusive side of me. can't thank him anymore for webcamming with me everynight since we've had each other. can't thank him more for allowing me to fall asleep, hugging his arms in the weirdest manner, till it gives him cramps. can't thank him much more for tolerating me when i go crazy. can't thank him enough for giving us a chance. and can't thank him any much more for making me a very very very happy girl. and can't thank him enough for loving me.
and i have to thank god for granting me such a wonderful person. for such a charming person.
have you ever been in love and felt proud of that person? because i've been feeling so for a year already.
if you are reading this, mun yin wai, i love you. so much more than you think a person can actually love. you will always have me, through thick and thin, good and bad times, through sickly times, and through health, rich or poor, as long as you want me there.
