two weeks.

yes. i've finally brought my butt to blog about things that has been happening lately. i've been meaning to blog, but just found myself too occupied with other matters. so these are from two weeks ago.

i've got pictures from curve, so these are from 1u. 1u's theme's white lyrical christmas. love the orchestra they had on the day i went. and i absolutely love the grand stage setup.



these pictures are from my weekend gateaway. very random pictures because cam was running out of power. i really need new rechargable batteries! boo-hoo!

yin wai's best friend. but i really prefer a manual navigator. this thing can be a tad bit annoying. hate it when it becomes repetitive. and it can be really ambiguous. i don't know how baby coped with it.

before taking off.

stopover at seremban for the absolutely yummy beef noodles!!! i love! i was completely the navigator in seremban because...does a gps track where is the big market? nevertheless, i am a good GPS. my sense of direction for a girl, is beyond thumbs up. right, hbr1!

being cool with the aviators on the way back! i have no idea why, journeys back home always make me sickly.

wern the stitch. haha. it's jin hoe's. we spent a very quiet christmas at SS2's yippee club.

then it was christmas dinner with the college half! we picked Frames @ Plaza TTDI because it was on my suggestion list alongside with Ditaliane Kitchen. but that can come the next time around. the usual gift exchange we had.

the girls!

some of the food.

i actually really liked the marinara.

the club sandwich i itched to try. but that can wait another time.

complimentary brownie because it was obvious we were celebrating christmas together!

handsome hbr1! and the not very pretty me.

maybe meendee can showcase some of her pictures here. they are all really pretty. price of food range from rm 16.90 to rm 25. but the food that day lacked salty aspect. overall, i loved the ambience and the lightings. but felt so-so for the food. there's definitely room for improvement. i didn't try the chicken and the club sandwich though. how was it actually?

i loved hbr1's peach and something smoothie, but felt bad cause i kept stealing from him. haha.

i had a nice, but not amazing christmas. this christmas felt a little lifeless hahaha. please, i don't want my new year's to be this way. but i got myself a christmas present, and it may seem to be the worst present someone can get for herself, but it made me really happy wtf (please baby, i love the skirt a lot, not that i don't).

seldom do i change my bottle. if you knew me well, you'd know i'd carry my own bottle everywhere i went. sense of security i guess. and my previous bottle brings a lot of unwanted memories.

a new one so hbr1 stops peeling the handle.

been doing a lot of shopping with sze vien and a lot of catching up with friends. so here, wishing all my blog readers, a merry blessed christmas (still not too late, christmas is a 12 days long celebration) and a happy new year.

i have no new year's resolution, because it is utmost useless. people make them, but seldom live up to it. so forget it. i just want a job badly (cause i think i'd fail in the cimb shit).

jingle bells!

hellllllo. i am here for a nice piccie-piccie post! i bet you must be happy, because there has been too many wordy posts for these couple of weeks. but because christmas is just around the corner, it's about time i go into a photo frenzy!

and yin wai went on a things-buying frenzy (shopping is a bad bad word).

dinner for him at ny deli. cute concept but really disliked the fact that the restaurant is of an open concept one. yin wai loved the sandwich (so i guess i need to go find out how to do it). i love the place because my hot chocolate was free (they didn't charge us).

baby is handsome here =)) i guess in a relationship, when you get to pick clothes for your boyfriend, it's a point where it gets serious? hahahahahaha. very cute, he cannot make any decisions on his own, or maybe just too lazy. i am a very cooperative girlfriend, so i do as i am told. i hope he had fun, because i hope to do it again sometime in the future soon.

then on saturday, i had curve in mind. actually it was pavilion, but i guess this year, pavilion is out of my list boohoo (cause i really want yw to play for nationals!! emo lil nemo).

hehe you can ignore my chicken wing arms =((

ikea for meatballs and it was jam packed as usual! then it was curve for...er...sight seeing.

curve's decorations felt a little bit 'fuller' than 1u's maybe because the trees had...leaves. green stuffs. where else at 1u, it was all RANTING wtf. hahaha. whatever it is, it is christmas, so in my heart, they're all pretty. i love my skirt btw.

gazebo?

jam packed. want to take pictures also abit susah.

see me! had to wait for the crowd to dismiss before taking ONE shot.

hehe my first christmas with him =)) and couldn't be anymore happier.

we had a pregnant woman taking this for us. thank you auntie!

i had a fantastic weekend! this weekend will even be better =))

i have been relatively busy because of job interviews. it may seem early to work, but i guess it's about time. succeeding in life is about planning ahead of others. i don't want to compete with anyone who will be returning from ashore. tomorrow's the interview i've been eyeing for. pray hard for me =))

my weird wishlist for Short.

ok i promise short that i would blog. on my wishlist. because she wants to save up to get my 22nd birthday present. (even my boyfriend hasn't asked me what i'd like) she loves me, dearly. i actually didn't intend to put up any christmas or birthday wishlist this time around because, everything i wanted would probably be too expensive. haha.

so i try to be as reasonable as possible. haha.

i need new rechargeable batteries. hahahaha. see, reasonable. i think the ones in the camera are dying! i just got myself a new 2gb memory card, but the battery keeps dying. so get me new rechargeable batteries!

hahahaha. man, hilarious.

i want skirts! omg. i think i am addicted to skirts. i feel in love with the ruffled grey silk skirt in cotton on. but ah, i go act cool so my boyfriend wouldn't get it for me, fml. then cotton on closed. is this fate or what? i want high waisted one with thick waist bands.

this one's euro 165. fml, i just have to like anything which is expensive and i can't afford it.

this one's really really cute too!

i also want a pair of leggings. everytime i try to make myself buy one, i find myself reasoning that i don't need it. hahaha. but i want one. so to get one, i need someone to get it for me.

here comes the RIDICULOUS list lor. hahaha

i no longer want a bloody blackberry. i want an N97, so fuckin' awesome! I LIKE A LOT! =(( i am still gonna use the dinosaur phone till i save enough to get an N97. Leighton Meester used it in her video Good Girls Gone Bad, featuring Cobra-something (yes, Starship). zomg, so chio can die. i want!


almost the same price as the N97, hahahaha, I WANT AN LV NEVERFULL DAMIER, because all chun chicks use a neverfull wat! ahahahaha. i am a big-bag lover so the neverfull would be just nice. =)) i don't want the monogram one.

sigh, if really poor, and still want to buy me a designer handbag, get me a longchamp lo. i don't consider replicas, sorry.

ahem....you can also save up to get me...vouchers from cotton on, a chio purse, BUT must be really chio. don't know lah, i am really particular when accepting gifts. or a new, spanking brand new, bulky leather strapped watch. because i see the one i wear, i want to throw on the wall, my ex gave it to me. sad thing is, i really like that watch. hahaha.

die die die, don't know what to give, just draw me a card like my bestie always does. or....buy me a mug. i have something for mugs. hahaha. GOOD NIGHT!

i've had such a bad week that no words can describe. maybe in years to come, i will put this out in public, but maybe not. because this matter is so close to heart. in my perspective, it is the pride of my life. to many, it may seem, rather shameful in conservative aspects. but never to me. it's not that i am hiding this personal matter, more of, putting in this blog is way too public.

i've been so down, that now it feels so great to be feeling slightly happier again.

2009 has been quite a year i must say. loads of decisions made, different paths taken and unexpected incidents.

well this year, i took a brave step and left my three year relationship. out of my comfort zone. i didn't make much initiative to explain myself why i did it. however, i find there's no need to explain to parties who had no role to my personal life. people judged and talked, believed what they believe, and i allowed, but i haven't regretted one bit. because whatever decision i made, i believe is right. for me.

at times of making decisions, i used to be someone who took too much of other people's consideration. then when i grew up, people who judged are just arseholes in life. they're unimportant. their thoughts are insignificant. and their opinions are just...amateur-ish.

what is important is that, i am really happy. and it tells. (my boobs grew! haha)

yin wai has been the sweetest at times when i need him most. and though as judged by sze vien who thought he has the bad boy look, is convinced he is a good man. haha. and i love him more ever dearly. =))

ps. please remind me to video and to save it in proper format.

i wished i can speak about the pain i've, in a way, chosen, to go through. the pain seems so surreal. feels like a miracle, yet such a tragic story.

maybe in years to come, i will have the guts to tell it out like a story. with a picture. my pride.

Absence.

i know there shouldn't be an excuse for my absence, considering my exams are done with. however, i had a video done, it was quite a long (ranting) video. but it was corrupted, fml. i spent like 20 hours trying to upload it. le sigh. all ze effort. gone!



so imma gonna roughly blog out what was in the video. so, blog readers, i've finally officially graduated. not from a diploma or foundation, from a degree. so screw anyone who thinks graduating young is impossible. maybe if youngsters stop being so not disciplined, have some persistance and determination and stop being 'bullshit' indecisive about what course to take etc, you can do it too.



i must say when i found out my last results, i was devastated (sorry baby i screwed you). i didn't graduate with a cgpa 3.0. very very devastated, heart broken in fact. when i found out, all i wanted to do was sleep and not wake up forever. then i realize, come on, i mean, 4 hd and 12 distinctions, is incredible. people leap for joy for even getting a PAP. then it didn't feel so bad.



however, screw taxation, i got a distinction only fml. expected. but what was unexpected was my investment results, wtf, i got a HD hahahahaha. i have no idea how. i thought i screwed the paper. i didn't know whether the beta was higher or lower, etc, i don't know what are the flaws of the FCFE method, and i didn't know what is a ....P/S ratio. omfg. i even screwed my modern portfolio theory fml. so there goes like.....16 marks.



i was preparing to fail it. seriously. and ppl say 'don't bullshit la u always pass etc etc'. wah damn annoying. i did the paper myself, i knew what i wrote, how i wrote, whether if i was sure of the answers. you just can't decide if the paper was easy for me. i honestly, was preparing to receive an NNN. but i got a Hd, thanks michael graham. owe you a meal if you google your name up, and see this!



then when i got my results, i got the usual, 'aiyah i knew it etc'. shit. IT WAS DIFFICULT OK. then i also got remarks from people who didn't take the paper and said 'oh then the paper must be easy'. sure, i cannot wait for you to take the damn paper.



nevertheless, alleluia, thank you christ! i will fulfill my promises i made in our deal.



for two days in a row, i was at the zara warehouse sale. if you knew it, i never missed a zara/pull&bear warehouse sale. but this time i got myself, nothing. but fell in love with a ted baker skirt....which got sold off when i went to find it on the second day.

at 10 am. gates open at 11 am. look at the AMOUNT of people. crazy.

i went with my sexy yap! while she waited in line, i went to grab ourselves tuna and chicken sandwiches. we spent an hour gossiping in line. haha. it was fun.

anyway, i also talked about movies i watched in my video. but forget about it. i forgot what movies i watched besides 2012. all the others were animations. i liked astro boy and planet 51 more than cloudy with a chance of meatballs. and i liked planet 51 more than astro boy. but none which i am gaga over it. so if i could turn back time, i won't even watch any of them, haha. and save the money. buy myself a pair of flats, wtf.

but 2012, was worth it. i rant too much seriously.

on a serious (emo) note: it is more difficult to find someone who loves you for who you are, than to find someone to love. so when you've found that someone, appreciate all you can. cause people who don't love you for who you are definitely worthless. and people who gave up on you are worthless. don't spend a minute thinking 'it was my fault'. love forgives, and if she/he loves, she/he'd never let go. and it's least worthy to fight for someone who didn't love you for who you are or gave up on you, with someone who truly loves you for who you are.

random shit.

ok this time around we talk clothes. as in a serious topic on clothes. this post because i find i have always been granted very slight chances in explaining myself when wearing something. so have i been accused and there was not an opportunity to explain.

so there it is.

firstly, i pick out my outfits, depending usually on two factors : my company and the venue. let's see how this works. my clothes are divided into, clothes for classes, clothes for going out with other half, et-F-c. i don't wear what i wear to class when i am out dating UNLESS clothings are versatile enough to suit both ocassions.

my perspective of comfort clothes is tank top, shorts/mini and cardigan. it just means i am in my comfort zone. usually meant for movies or hanging out for no reason. rarely for classes. not the tank top. usually.

for classes are usually all the time pullovers. thick jackets. or 'long enough' dresses topped up with cardigan. reason is, classes are cold. so i rarely remove pullovers. removing pullovers is troublesome. so it's either i wear it, and never remove it, OR I DON'T WEAR IT. simple.

and now, my boyfriend ask, why do i always have the tank top and skirt outfit when i am out with him. simple. the answer is, that's my dating outfit. i absolutely adore the high waisted poofy skirt because it's conservative like me, yet very feminine. i only wear this, when i want to look my best. sigh.

i have my favourites. so yeah there's the reason. haven't you got a favourite outfit?

so my tank tops + skirts are usually for really special moments with a special person. it's my favourite outfit combination. hands down.

i usually feel prettiest in a pair of high waisted skirt and a tank top.

the prophecy

i just got back from 2012. and i just have to blog. shamelessly, i loved the show. it was filled with emotions. it was sad and touching at parts. totally grossed out at some. hilarious at moments. and was joyous towards the end. (sorry mun choon choon if you hated it =(()

in my facebook, someone said '2012 is life changing'. i partially agree with his statement, but in my perspective, 2012 made me realize life, so much more than i did before.

it made me realize that life's too short. reminded me to not give up on loving. reminded me to take a chance on things i believed and had faith in. never look back because life's too short for regrets.

that was sadly the only plus point.

sad thing is, it also made me asked myself, 'so i've learnt all these awesome currency and all these awesome strategies in stock trading, credit risk watching, i am a smart child when it comes to legally gambling and analyzing legal gambling, but when the world comes to an end, how can i help make a change?'. no economy is gonna matter, no currency is going to matter, no financial instruments are going to matter. it's just us against nature.

i ...took the wrong major. HAHA. ok. sorry that was silly.

however, the big question is, if you were given that one magical chance worth 1 billion euro, would you embark on that almighty ark?

i won't. i won't watch the people i love die. the worst kind of pain is to watch the people you know and love die, and yet to survive ourselves. it's the heaviest circumstance one's got to endure. if nature's going to take its own course, so will i follow, because i am sure if it happens, God has planned it. now the thing is, how much you believe in God?

unless, i get to bring along everyone i love and care for. my house. my clothes. my bla bla bla. wth, i am a sentimental person. stubborn hard as stone is, but definitely, soft at heart.

what about you?

obligatory camwhore shot! forgive the pimples. contagious, got it from hbr1. tsk. i had GREAT fun today getting lost for an hour searching high and low for gasoline. jeez.

hungry monster.

Pictures from dinner at San Francisco steakhouse hours ago. feeling tremendously sleepy. so this will be a real short post. with piccies!

preferred the previous san francisco's menu. it seemed as if they revamped their menu and shrank it quite a bit. very disappointing because i initially wanted the black pepper rib eye steak. i am a sucker for meat.

accompanying complimentary bread. love the garlic butter. i love anything with garlic, butter, cheese, onion. very guilty. hahahaha.

my f-awesome favourite among all dishes! escargots! with garlic cream sauce. i literally licked the platter clean.

food piccies! need not much commentary.

mine! sucker for any type of meat. lamb!

sister's lamb rack.

that's a short food piccies post for you. salivating yet?

random babbling.

i want to go on a strict diet. seriously. no more rubbish food. vege and h2o all the way. my skin has been so baddddd. ewww! ok, we can't really call it diet, maybe like routine. can someone fix my body clock for me!! it's 4 am and i am sitting in front of the laptop, eating chocolate mousse cake, listening to michael buble. omg. i am fat. NO wait. i am not fat, just unhealthy. i am still underweight.

okay i need to learn how to sleep early. eat healthy. wake up early. drink so much water that i'd puke. and exercise! i never ever exercise.

and wait for my results. wah, this is so depressing. waiting for results has got to be the most depressing thing to do. like anticipating death!

ok. i have no idea what i am doing here. i am just bored while waiting for me, to be sleepy. this is damn sad right. and i just so happened to open my Buble live in madison square list. he is awesome. i mean, how can some people never heard of him before? damn lame. hahahaha. seriously. no joke. i like him in a way...that i don't even know which song of his is my favourite! but i absolutely love his madison square performance! i would be talking to yin wai and crazy little thing called love comes on and i'll be 'oh this is my favourite song!'. he'd go 'but so elvis!'. haha. then you don't know me would come on and i'll be gleeing 'this is my favourite song!'. indecisiveness. sigh. how to not fall in love with a man like buble. youtellme.

oh wells, just a random update.

i've been reading on nora robert's tribute. i've already read like.....7 of her novels i guess. i have 3 to read over here. she is an ingeneous author. her books are f-awesome. i really like adele park too. i mean, besides all the jk rowling. nora roberts is like a-may-zing. her In The Garden trilogy was good. but Montana Sky has to be my favourite =)). damn cheong hei. ok if you're bored, go get a nora roberts novel. awesome.

can you tell me that i am actually not a boring person. i mean, how many 21 year olds read nora roberts and listens to buble. ok i am boring. but really adorable! haha.

anyways! updates tomorrow. just to entertain my Sexy Yapsze. =)) oh bai.

went up the hill and rolled down.

oh hai. i promise YapSze i would blog. so here i am.

holidays is boring as hell can be. how boring can hell be? how's hell like anyways. it's just this sort of mixed feeling about holidays. happy that exams are over, finally. but sad because study life has come to an end. when there was exams, studying was boring as HELL. now that there's no more exams, no aim when waking up in the morning (or afternoon in my case), life is as boring as it can be because i have got nothing to do! shit.

and so i've been wanting to catch some movie. specifically time traveller's wife. and tsunami. but tsunami's no more showing. time traveller's wife looks like a real sad show. really.

ANYHOWS. haha. 'cheong hei' ah. anyhows! dickson ffk-ed yin wai and i. BUT fret not!!! i have yin wai. BUT tickets just have to be sold out. OMG DAMN CHEONG HEI CAN DIE! in conclusion, we got tickets for tomorrow.

and i went up some hill! (ok, halo, sister if you read this, just quiet ok! thanks)

i missed genting like shit, seriously.

i am shoooo purrrdey. hahaha.

oh hai, i hate your shirt!

at coffee bean! so brave hor, had ice blended and it was freezing and i was in short skirt!

i mean, it was no ordinary thing for two young people to do. but it was REALLY FUN! beating the cold, do 'kou lan tou' stuffs like drinking ice blended in chilly air. omg. ons. then losing our ways in between those gazillion escalators. le sigh. genting is all love and no play! haha.

and so this is my blog post just to entertain Big Bola. hahaha.

anyway, these pictures are from before leaving house.

usually outfit pictures are updated in twitter. but i had no time to upload it. I WANT A BLACKBERRY! i dreamt that my sister got me a Blackberry. yin wai just had to wake me up from my sweeeet dream. and when i start work, i will get myself a blackberry, youwatchmeitellyouiamsodamndeadserious!

ANYWAY! since christmas is coming! yalah, you heard me. all i want is a blackberry. nothing else. understand? sigh. christmas. cannot ask too much. i want a pair of watch too!!! i still like that tommy hilfiger one i saw. HAHAHAHA. what! you think i like Guess watches ar, dowan please, overrated. ahhhh, christmas is coming. so excited. youwatchlah, when i work, I GOING TO BUY MYSELF ALL THESE SHIT.

i swear. seehowseriousiam!

haha. okay good night! thank you for sparing few minutes of your life in my blog. thank u thank u.