roller coasters of emotions.

there's this part in this song which says,

nothing's ever built to last,
you're in ruins.

which hits me hard.

today i realize how much one yearns for a sense of security. in class, i always learn that investors yearn for low risk, and i always think that's bullshit because low risk, just simply means low returns. i never really understood the concept of security.

today i did.

being very fortunate, i always had the sense of security because i always get what i want and i get to hear what i want to hear. but this time around it's so different. i asked for challenge.

at the end of the day, it's just the sense of security and incentives i search.

i don't want to fight, to get nothing at the end. that would be silly. if really nothing's built to last, i am in total ruins.

(i love this song dearly and it has been playing on my wmp since i watched transformers. i heard it playing when the credits rolled and the first part of the lyrics caught my attention 'do you know what's worth fighting for? when it's not worth dying for?'. so very my song, rock + emo + extreme emo lyrics= extremely me, wtf. and there's so many people who loves this song, namely yee vonn and may yee!)

like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone.