Absence.

i know there shouldn't be an excuse for my absence, considering my exams are done with. however, i had a video done, it was quite a long (ranting) video. but it was corrupted, fml. i spent like 20 hours trying to upload it. le sigh. all ze effort. gone!



so imma gonna roughly blog out what was in the video. so, blog readers, i've finally officially graduated. not from a diploma or foundation, from a degree. so screw anyone who thinks graduating young is impossible. maybe if youngsters stop being so not disciplined, have some persistance and determination and stop being 'bullshit' indecisive about what course to take etc, you can do it too.



i must say when i found out my last results, i was devastated (sorry baby i screwed you). i didn't graduate with a cgpa 3.0. very very devastated, heart broken in fact. when i found out, all i wanted to do was sleep and not wake up forever. then i realize, come on, i mean, 4 hd and 12 distinctions, is incredible. people leap for joy for even getting a PAP. then it didn't feel so bad.



however, screw taxation, i got a distinction only fml. expected. but what was unexpected was my investment results, wtf, i got a HD hahahahaha. i have no idea how. i thought i screwed the paper. i didn't know whether the beta was higher or lower, etc, i don't know what are the flaws of the FCFE method, and i didn't know what is a ....P/S ratio. omfg. i even screwed my modern portfolio theory fml. so there goes like.....16 marks.



i was preparing to fail it. seriously. and ppl say 'don't bullshit la u always pass etc etc'. wah damn annoying. i did the paper myself, i knew what i wrote, how i wrote, whether if i was sure of the answers. you just can't decide if the paper was easy for me. i honestly, was preparing to receive an NNN. but i got a Hd, thanks michael graham. owe you a meal if you google your name up, and see this!



then when i got my results, i got the usual, 'aiyah i knew it etc'. shit. IT WAS DIFFICULT OK. then i also got remarks from people who didn't take the paper and said 'oh then the paper must be easy'. sure, i cannot wait for you to take the damn paper.



nevertheless, alleluia, thank you christ! i will fulfill my promises i made in our deal.



for two days in a row, i was at the zara warehouse sale. if you knew it, i never missed a zara/pull&bear warehouse sale. but this time i got myself, nothing. but fell in love with a ted baker skirt....which got sold off when i went to find it on the second day.

at 10 am. gates open at 11 am. look at the AMOUNT of people. crazy.

i went with my sexy yap! while she waited in line, i went to grab ourselves tuna and chicken sandwiches. we spent an hour gossiping in line. haha. it was fun.

anyway, i also talked about movies i watched in my video. but forget about it. i forgot what movies i watched besides 2012. all the others were animations. i liked astro boy and planet 51 more than cloudy with a chance of meatballs. and i liked planet 51 more than astro boy. but none which i am gaga over it. so if i could turn back time, i won't even watch any of them, haha. and save the money. buy myself a pair of flats, wtf.

but 2012, was worth it. i rant too much seriously.

on a serious (emo) note: it is more difficult to find someone who loves you for who you are, than to find someone to love. so when you've found that someone, appreciate all you can. cause people who don't love you for who you are definitely worthless. and people who gave up on you are worthless. don't spend a minute thinking 'it was my fault'. love forgives, and if she/he loves, she/he'd never let go. and it's least worthy to fight for someone who didn't love you for who you are or gave up on you, with someone who truly loves you for who you are.

random shit.

ok this time around we talk clothes. as in a serious topic on clothes. this post because i find i have always been granted very slight chances in explaining myself when wearing something. so have i been accused and there was not an opportunity to explain.

so there it is.

firstly, i pick out my outfits, depending usually on two factors : my company and the venue. let's see how this works. my clothes are divided into, clothes for classes, clothes for going out with other half, et-F-c. i don't wear what i wear to class when i am out dating UNLESS clothings are versatile enough to suit both ocassions.

my perspective of comfort clothes is tank top, shorts/mini and cardigan. it just means i am in my comfort zone. usually meant for movies or hanging out for no reason. rarely for classes. not the tank top. usually.

for classes are usually all the time pullovers. thick jackets. or 'long enough' dresses topped up with cardigan. reason is, classes are cold. so i rarely remove pullovers. removing pullovers is troublesome. so it's either i wear it, and never remove it, OR I DON'T WEAR IT. simple.

and now, my boyfriend ask, why do i always have the tank top and skirt outfit when i am out with him. simple. the answer is, that's my dating outfit. i absolutely adore the high waisted poofy skirt because it's conservative like me, yet very feminine. i only wear this, when i want to look my best. sigh.

i have my favourites. so yeah there's the reason. haven't you got a favourite outfit?

so my tank tops + skirts are usually for really special moments with a special person. it's my favourite outfit combination. hands down.

i usually feel prettiest in a pair of high waisted skirt and a tank top.

the prophecy

i just got back from 2012. and i just have to blog. shamelessly, i loved the show. it was filled with emotions. it was sad and touching at parts. totally grossed out at some. hilarious at moments. and was joyous towards the end. (sorry mun choon choon if you hated it =(()

in my facebook, someone said '2012 is life changing'. i partially agree with his statement, but in my perspective, 2012 made me realize life, so much more than i did before.

it made me realize that life's too short. reminded me to not give up on loving. reminded me to take a chance on things i believed and had faith in. never look back because life's too short for regrets.

that was sadly the only plus point.

sad thing is, it also made me asked myself, 'so i've learnt all these awesome currency and all these awesome strategies in stock trading, credit risk watching, i am a smart child when it comes to legally gambling and analyzing legal gambling, but when the world comes to an end, how can i help make a change?'. no economy is gonna matter, no currency is going to matter, no financial instruments are going to matter. it's just us against nature.

i ...took the wrong major. HAHA. ok. sorry that was silly.

however, the big question is, if you were given that one magical chance worth 1 billion euro, would you embark on that almighty ark?

i won't. i won't watch the people i love die. the worst kind of pain is to watch the people you know and love die, and yet to survive ourselves. it's the heaviest circumstance one's got to endure. if nature's going to take its own course, so will i follow, because i am sure if it happens, God has planned it. now the thing is, how much you believe in God?

unless, i get to bring along everyone i love and care for. my house. my clothes. my bla bla bla. wth, i am a sentimental person. stubborn hard as stone is, but definitely, soft at heart.

what about you?

obligatory camwhore shot! forgive the pimples. contagious, got it from hbr1. tsk. i had GREAT fun today getting lost for an hour searching high and low for gasoline. jeez.

hungry monster.

Pictures from dinner at San Francisco steakhouse hours ago. feeling tremendously sleepy. so this will be a real short post. with piccies!

preferred the previous san francisco's menu. it seemed as if they revamped their menu and shrank it quite a bit. very disappointing because i initially wanted the black pepper rib eye steak. i am a sucker for meat.

accompanying complimentary bread. love the garlic butter. i love anything with garlic, butter, cheese, onion. very guilty. hahahaha.

my f-awesome favourite among all dishes! escargots! with garlic cream sauce. i literally licked the platter clean.

food piccies! need not much commentary.

mine! sucker for any type of meat. lamb!

sister's lamb rack.

that's a short food piccies post for you. salivating yet?

random babbling.

i want to go on a strict diet. seriously. no more rubbish food. vege and h2o all the way. my skin has been so baddddd. ewww! ok, we can't really call it diet, maybe like routine. can someone fix my body clock for me!! it's 4 am and i am sitting in front of the laptop, eating chocolate mousse cake, listening to michael buble. omg. i am fat. NO wait. i am not fat, just unhealthy. i am still underweight.

okay i need to learn how to sleep early. eat healthy. wake up early. drink so much water that i'd puke. and exercise! i never ever exercise.

and wait for my results. wah, this is so depressing. waiting for results has got to be the most depressing thing to do. like anticipating death!

ok. i have no idea what i am doing here. i am just bored while waiting for me, to be sleepy. this is damn sad right. and i just so happened to open my Buble live in madison square list. he is awesome. i mean, how can some people never heard of him before? damn lame. hahahaha. seriously. no joke. i like him in a way...that i don't even know which song of his is my favourite! but i absolutely love his madison square performance! i would be talking to yin wai and crazy little thing called love comes on and i'll be 'oh this is my favourite song!'. he'd go 'but so elvis!'. haha. then you don't know me would come on and i'll be gleeing 'this is my favourite song!'. indecisiveness. sigh. how to not fall in love with a man like buble. youtellme.

oh wells, just a random update.

i've been reading on nora robert's tribute. i've already read like.....7 of her novels i guess. i have 3 to read over here. she is an ingeneous author. her books are f-awesome. i really like adele park too. i mean, besides all the jk rowling. nora roberts is like a-may-zing. her In The Garden trilogy was good. but Montana Sky has to be my favourite =)). damn cheong hei. ok if you're bored, go get a nora roberts novel. awesome.

can you tell me that i am actually not a boring person. i mean, how many 21 year olds read nora roberts and listens to buble. ok i am boring. but really adorable! haha.

anyways! updates tomorrow. just to entertain my Sexy Yapsze. =)) oh bai.

went up the hill and rolled down.

oh hai. i promise YapSze i would blog. so here i am.

holidays is boring as hell can be. how boring can hell be? how's hell like anyways. it's just this sort of mixed feeling about holidays. happy that exams are over, finally. but sad because study life has come to an end. when there was exams, studying was boring as HELL. now that there's no more exams, no aim when waking up in the morning (or afternoon in my case), life is as boring as it can be because i have got nothing to do! shit.

and so i've been wanting to catch some movie. specifically time traveller's wife. and tsunami. but tsunami's no more showing. time traveller's wife looks like a real sad show. really.

ANYHOWS. haha. 'cheong hei' ah. anyhows! dickson ffk-ed yin wai and i. BUT fret not!!! i have yin wai. BUT tickets just have to be sold out. OMG DAMN CHEONG HEI CAN DIE! in conclusion, we got tickets for tomorrow.

and i went up some hill! (ok, halo, sister if you read this, just quiet ok! thanks)

i missed genting like shit, seriously.

i am shoooo purrrdey. hahaha.

oh hai, i hate your shirt!

at coffee bean! so brave hor, had ice blended and it was freezing and i was in short skirt!

i mean, it was no ordinary thing for two young people to do. but it was REALLY FUN! beating the cold, do 'kou lan tou' stuffs like drinking ice blended in chilly air. omg. ons. then losing our ways in between those gazillion escalators. le sigh. genting is all love and no play! haha.

and so this is my blog post just to entertain Big Bola. hahaha.

anyway, these pictures are from before leaving house.

usually outfit pictures are updated in twitter. but i had no time to upload it. I WANT A BLACKBERRY! i dreamt that my sister got me a Blackberry. yin wai just had to wake me up from my sweeeet dream. and when i start work, i will get myself a blackberry, youwatchmeitellyouiamsodamndeadserious!

ANYWAY! since christmas is coming! yalah, you heard me. all i want is a blackberry. nothing else. understand? sigh. christmas. cannot ask too much. i want a pair of watch too!!! i still like that tommy hilfiger one i saw. HAHAHAHA. what! you think i like Guess watches ar, dowan please, overrated. ahhhh, christmas is coming. so excited. youwatchlah, when i work, I GOING TO BUY MYSELF ALL THESE SHIT.

i swear. seehowseriousiam!

haha. okay good night! thank you for sparing few minutes of your life in my blog. thank u thank u.

Untitled updates are good for the soul.

oh hai. good morning. it's 7.25 am. and i am awake. i am on holidays, so it's a rare thing to see me awake at such an ungodly hour. i fell asleep at 1.20 am, surprise surprise much. jolted up at 4.34 am to make a call, wth. but eventually i did fall back asleep. but wtf, i woke back up at 5.30 am thinking i used the wrong information to derive my correlation coeffiecient and beta. omg. really fml.

i panicked for a moment. haha. this sounds really silly. i thought i used the standard deviation of market multiplied with the s.d. of the company to derive the beta. why would i multiply these two. then i realized i used it when deriving my correlation coefficient. haha. i used the variance of the market to derive the beta. and i thought of all these things IN BED, without looking at the book for formulas.

ok boring things aside, i am done with exams! wheee! cartwheels/

i really can't tell if i did ok because now, after everything, i keep thinking i made mistakes. didn't draw enough conclusions, didn't explain enough, maybe i used the wrong information, explained TOO MUCH and drew too little conclusions etc. and some, i don't even know the answers (thank you, investment).

all i can do is pray hard... and worry even more. trust me on the worrying part.

so, after all the chaos and havoc for finals, whee, i got to finally do what i wanted to do all week long. which was, VISIT COTTON ON IN 1U!! yes you heard me, whee, cotton on is in malaysia!

lunch at otak-otak place. i really like this place. simply because of the deco.

blurry picture sorry forgot to check.

menus were in forms of exercise books, very very cute.

table number cards in happy family cards! chio!

i like otak-otak a lot. especially those from muar and which are too oily to actually be eaten. unhealthy food is yummy food, really. look at mc d's.

in cotton on, i was a little girl in a candy store! for many reasons. because everything is chio and cute there! no.2, the clothes are reasonably cheap! 50% of forever 21, nice huh. i couldn't decide what i want, haha. drawbacks, it feels as if there's not much selections. andddddd, the worst thing EVER, i can't fit into their size 6....which is their smallest size. wtf.

however, if you stood there and you tried converting their AUD prices into MYR, at the current exchange rate, it is actually....wayyyyy cheaper. i have no idea why.

despite not being able to fit in the smallest size, i still grabbed an awesome skirt and will bring it to the tailor later, fml seriously.

whee! yin wai goes grocery shopping! hahahahahahahahahaha. poor baby, the things he has to do for me. hahahahahaha. you should've seen his face when i was at the HYPER (not super)market, to get chicken wings and a bottle of yoghurt. and he asked if i was going to eat the yoghurt. hahahahaha. i said 'no it's for my face' HAHAHAHA. ahhh FHL! (eh but then he doesn't look handsome here how come)

love much!